Desirée Elder
Pastor. Author. Church Girl in Recovery.
Gaslit by God
Gaslit by God
COMING January 2027
For the women who stayed. The ones who left. And the ones still sitting in the pew on Sunday, wondering if they're the only one asking these questions.
Gaslit by God is a memoir-driven recovery guide for unlearning shame, naming spiritual gaslighting, and reclaiming a faith that was always meant to be yours. Through honest storytelling, cultural critique, and scripture without the weaponry, this book offers language for what happened and a path back to yourself.
Publisher: Broadleaf Books
A Book That Names the Shame and Fuels the Freedom
Meet Desirée
Pastor. Author. Church girl, still in recovery. Desirée "Pastor Dez" Elder is a pastor, writer, and cultural architect. The founder of Church Girl in Recovery and Pastor of Development and Innovation at First Corinthian Baptist Church, she creates space for women to ask hard questions, rebuild faith on their own terms, and stop performing a version of themselves God never required. Learn More
“I became a Renaissance woman by accident — by simply putting my hand to the plow over and over again before I knew what would grow. Turns out, that’s enough”.
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